Re-Turn Re-Run 2015

So… With trembling hands, and a minor anxiety attack I am behind the computer to write again. Different reasons for being so, the return that is 1) Finishing my thesis, had me feeling nauseous of keyboards, now 6 months later I miss it – the writing, not he thesis! 2) Life has been turned upside down, and I constantly find my self going through it in my mind, as blog posts.

So here goes what might be the longest blogpost (or shortest) ever made from author behind.

Let’s use bullits. For the 2015 that went:

  1. Survived and finished thesis with an admirable grade. Succes! Even though counselor had me answering “I don’t even know what our findings were – nothing I guess”. I am still contemplating that one..
  2. Survived break up with bf through 5 years. During thesis writing that is. But I guess that helped me through it.
  3. Met a guy, had him move in for a month, then his friend (and my colleague, I’m not that crazy). Fell in love with 1st guy ( I think, still not sure) but he did made me rebound from break up, and then later made me loose my mind during the whole summer.
  4. Tried to see if fuckling others would minimise loss of mind. Partly a succes.
  5. Had a threesome!
  6. Had a lover.
  7. Did that thing I can’t really talk about, but will reflect upon later on in this post.
  8. Started working in the wine bars again.
  9. Had a semi depression.
  10. Started working out (working that ass and them abs – why do you look better in your 30’s than in your 20’s? Cause you need it more?)
  11. Made peace with at at least 3 of my manly relations, who had been messing with my mind (all in 24 hours, I’m awesome!)

So the reflections following these events, can also be narrowed down to bullit points (isn’t it lovely).

  1. I spend waaaaay to much time adjusting my own well being to matters and definitions of the men in my life. Solution is spending more time on me and myself, being maybe a bit more ego centered, while tile staying open and curious (hence the date for the fires time ever, planned to night). But most def, loving the soothing company of my own. After all, I would love to date the man version of me, but will have to settle for just myself for the time being.
  2. Your identity connects a lot to relationsshipstatus and education (job), and altering the both of these, will make you feel a loss of identity. Solution is not to panic, not to sleep all day and get depressed, but look at fucking opportunities and deal with your new label of “Single & educated – dont know what I am doing”. Life goes on, make the most of it.
  3. I need to find my passion in life. 2016 goal.
  4. Sex feels absolutely empty with out feelings, but still, can be extremely good. No fucking on first dates from now on?

Sun is shining, a moment I can’t let pass by in these dark winter times…

A return, a rerun, lets see if this is something that will help me get a hold on crazy thoughts, so I can keep my mind.

 

 

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Somethings cooking

And it’s an idea…

First off…

Note to self

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Courtesy of Anna Vital via Rebel Academy 


Dream Job

Would be providing people with good advices during alcohol consumption and doodeling.

Maybe part time.

The other half would be judging movies after own choice.

Maybe only in the dark half of the year.

Summer job would include checking wine fields in spain, and food tasting.

All above with the people I love ofcourse. We will build an empire. A coach/wineproduction/movie/food reviewer/life enjoying empire.

Where can I sign up for that?


Monday Morning

They are usually awful… But this one had a twist to it.

Got up in time and arrived for the first time as the first person at work. Look at that. Just to realize that I had left my phone at home, making me unable to find out WHY I was the only one present. Even though I’ve been given keys, they weren’t so helpful without the security code. And I figured setting an alarm off would be just a bit too much stress for a monday morning.

So, after 20 minutes of stair sitting and wall watching, I see it as my chance to get some coffee and breakfast. Walking out on to the street, meeting an italian tourist.

“Is this the prison?” He asks

“No it’s the courthouse”

“What is this court?”

“Ehmm… Law, lawhouse?”

“Ah.. landhouse!”

“Sigh, no.. Law… Court…?”

“I don’t understand, so you speak italian?” (Speak italian just to check)

“Ehm, no”

“You from Denmark?”

“Yes”

“You work here?”

“Yes”

“What you work with?”

“Advertising”

“?”

“Commercials?”

“?”

“Sigh, commercials, advertising…”

“Aaaah commercials”

“What kind of commercials”

“Ehm… Coca Cola”

“Ah! Drinking… Yes… ”

“Yeah”

“Me, I am a dentist”

“Well allright… I’m going to get a coffee so you have a nice day now ok?”

“Ciao”

 

 


Hangovers and Excel

So my hardworking bf finally finished his becoming a chef education. Which had to be celebrated. With 4 boys, too many beers, lambrusco, Gammel Dansk and music. Oh my. I still feel quit drunk, working on a timeline in excel. And now it’s Friday. Which means more drinking. Sigh. When will Fridays ever become equal non drinking days?